I think it’s time to be clear with people that know me now, in the past or the future but I will probably tell you anyway in the future I mean.
I don’t believe in God. Simple I’m done.
Okay I’m joking, but seriously I don’t believe in god. When I was younger, like 5 years old. I remember asking my mom if she believed in god and she said ‘yes my dear I believe, because how else did we get there and we are here to pray to God’.
Thanks mom such a heavy topic for a 5 year old. But ever since then I began to think about it. Like really think about God and all this fabulous things that it “could” do. And I call it, it because who says it’s a he or a she or whatever gender it has. In most religious texts it’s usually a he and I’m just like ‘Suuuuuree whatever cause you saw it right?’
Anyways back to the topic. God, that thing in the sky.
I stopped believing at 11 or 10 years old. I know it a really young age to stop believing but a lot of shit happened before that age for me to never believe in the beginning. I stopped because my mom was having a hard time with a lot. And so every day I would pray to god. (In my case Allah but same thing God Allah whatever) And months would passed by and our situation would just get worse. Out of nowhere when I was praying, I began to think why should I pray if nothing ever happens. Then I stopped praying 5 times to 3 then 1 and I stopped. At 15 I stopped reading the Quran and began to just live. I can’t ever say that I’m not grateful, I am but it clicked that there is nothing up in the sky. It’s just stars, galaxies, some cosmic radiation and other unknown stuff. I don’t know when you think about things on a scientific level. I am actually curious what is this all. I know that big bang and all that but before the big bang and before that. What was there. What was anywhere?
I don’t have a religion. I don’t believe in God or a omniscient being. I respect people that have religion, those who do not, and those that are confused about religion and if they should change.
In Islam it’s so hard to just say that you don’t believe. It’s like your born into it but you can’t ever leave. Some extreme Muslims see it as a sin to leave and that is their opinion.
I understand if you’re going through this situation, especially in Islam where it seems to be some kind of crime. You know for a peaceful religion, it does not seem so peaceful. Understand that there are Muslims, people around, communities who will accept that you don’t believe. Just don’t become one of those people that have to shove their ideas down other people’s throats please.